Why is love so complicated? Why are people so persistent to get with you and than months into it their true colors begin to show? I don't think I will ever understand how a mans mind work... I keep over thinking things & its giving me a headache...
I'm upset with a friend of mine because I feel like she's settling, she deserves so much more than she is given... She has the potential to be this amazing woman but because she's afraid of being alone... Its almost like an "This is all I can get so I'll take it" kinda thing. I hate that about her. The thing about it is, he's involved with someone so he can't fully invest all of his time into her, the fact that he has a family isn't bugging me because I truly believe in the phrase "You can't help who you love" and I understand their attraction to one another because this isn't the 1st time around for them, but c'mon son.. There's so much more you can be, why settle? At least keep your options open in the event something better come all, how you gon' put all your eggs in one basket when this man has a family? A live in family at that... *sigh* Here comes the headache again.
I went out last night, Big Ricks was epic but I didn't enjoy it as much as I wanted to. The crowd was crazy, the music was great, drinks were on deck but I couldn't bring myself to enjoy it. Saw a few dudes from my past, I don't wanna get into that though.. At least not right now. I think I'll stay off the party scene for a while, I've been out 3times for the month of April alone.. Believe it for not, that's a record.
I'm still trying to get into this new job I have, I worked at the bank for 11months but they let me go as a means to reduce cost. It was sad because I loved my job. It was the ideal job for me & the pay was great too. I fell back from that pretty quickly and found this job as a Chiropractor's Assistance. Basically I do secretarial work. I don't like it to much, mainly because I hate dealing with customers.. Its never been my thing. The pay sucks but its better than nothing so I'm thankful. I'm able to pay my bills & have a drink with friends now and than. I keep saying I'm gonna apply to a few other banks but at the same time I feel like this woman gave me a job when I needed one & I can't just up & leave her. Even though I'm not truly happy.
Decisions, Decisions.
Life is ok. God is good!
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