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So its 11:52pm & I have the craziest headache... I think its due to that fact that I haven't eaten all day, to top it off Skie is in the front room making a lot of noise, can someone tell me why the eff this kid ain't sleep? SMT. In other news, I began packing tonight, it almost time to head back to the dreadful island of Turks & Caicos. I mean, I love my country but I just don't know why I get fed up after being back there after just a few months, Its HOT like all year round, my room doesn't have a/c (yet) & I have yet to find a damn job, the economy sucks major ass right now.

Lately I've been doing much better than I did a few months earlier. (quick recap)... Met the man of my dreams (or so I thought), fell in love with him, was going to marry him but after 2years shit just went south... It was a long distance thing but we always managed to see one another throughout the whole relationship, at one point he was even living with me in Miami... We had such a good thing, until I graduated college & moved back to the Islands.. Shit just started going South... Long story short, I broke up with him because I can't deal with unfaithful people, I mean I fucked up in a previous relationship so I am in no position to judge others, but b/c of what I did I know its not the life I want anymore, I hurt people in the process & now KARMA kick me right back in the ass... I took my losses & kept it moving, I was so hurt when we first separated, I segregated myself from family & close friends, the only thing that got me through was god, my Nephews & my moms Love... Oh yea & a lot of prayer. But yeah, I'm not ready for any relationships ANYTIME soon, but I am definitely going to love again, one day, I can feel it in my heart... For now, I'm going to enjoy singleness & all its benefits (smile).  My heart is almost back to where I want it to be, I still love him can't deny that... But I love me more.

I'm going to bed now, long shopping day tomorrow & I am finally going to renew this passport... Arghhh I hate downtown Miami.

-Condisa E